smile....

I still remember the night we met 
You said you loved my smile 
But your love for me was like a summer breeze 
Oh it lasted for a while I could hold on a little tighter I know 
But when you love someone gotta let'em go 
So 
I'm gonna smile 
Cause I wanna make you happy 
Laugh 
So you can't see me cry 
I'm gonna let you go style 
And even if it kills me 
I'm gonna smile 
Kiss me once for the good times, baby 
Kiss me twice for good bye 
You can't help how you don't feel 
And it does'nt matter why give me a chance to bow out gracefully '
Cause that's how I want you to remember me 
I'm gonna smile 
Cause I want to make you happy 
Laugh 
So you cant see me cry 
I'm gonna let you go 
Style 
And even if it kills me 
I'm gonna smile 
I'm gonna smile so you can find the courage 
Laugh, so you wont see me hurtin' 
I'm gonna let you go 
Style 
And even if it kills me 
I'm gonna

smile

truth of life

I was a just-born and she was Twenty-Five,
Though we were we, we were one.
I would cry out in Latin and she would respond in Greek,
I would learn nothing but she never got tired to teach.

I was surrounded by monsters eager to pull my cheek,
but they would vanish the moment I was wet and weep.
She would come running and hold me in her arms,
as if I had won the contest of the charms.

Now I was able to walk and chew,
and hey, I was two.
I and she could now understand each other,
I was her everything and she needed no other.

I would try to walk and fall down,
But knowing she was with me,
the fear of getting hurt was now gone.
We still could not converse that effectively,
But she would understand my needs so easily.

I could now roam about free,
because now I have turned three.
I was ready to join a new world,
my academic life was now gonna mould.

She would dress me as best as a prince,
but when I would come back,
she would need at least an hour to rinse.
I was now able to talk,
I was a ferry and she was my dock.

I still remember the child, whose shirt I had tore,
Hey buddy, I have turned four.
I now came home a little late,
Nevertheless finding her waiting at the gate.
She would hug me and carry me in her arms,
it felt like flying through the farms.
We now did the homework together,
I would spoil the home and she used to work.

Years passed and now I was fifteen,
and with each year I would forget to lean.
I wouldn't care for what she said,
because now I had become mean.
She would ask me to study for a good future,
but I was busy in a different culture.
Now I had many shes in my life,
I dreamed of having one of them as my wife.

I changed a lot which she did not teach,
She would try to hug me but I was out of reach.
She still waited for me at the gate,
but I would look at her with utmost hate.
She would be awake till late in the night,
because I wasn't home, I was in a fight.
She had so much to scold, but she never did say,
hoping to find me better the next day.
Time went on and now I am grown,
lost in the world of my own.

I and she, between us have a river,
I have left her for my career.
When I was young, for me, she sacrificed her ambitions,
but I don't care, I now have my own mission.
I am not with her now, I am in a different city,
she is so old now but I don't even pity.

She needs me now but I am nowhere to find,
in the race for appraisal, I have become blind.
In a few years from now, I will be two,
there will be in my life someone new.
Then I'll forget even to bother,

footprints

I trusted you as a friend, although
I never knew what you thought of me
Valued you as a person; with you,
Myself I could always be.

I only tried to put you at ease
As you never expressed what you really feel
Maybe I did hurt your heart in a way
But it's hurting me more, with a torturous zeal.

You just chose to keep away
Hurting me with your words all along
Left me wondering all the time
What on my part made this go wrong?

I wish you would come back to me
As waiting for you makes me feel so helpless
Maybe you never bothered to realize
But I am missing you more than I can express.

Waves seem to pound at my heart
As your thoughts take my breath away
Maybe we took everything for granted
Must be true that all men are that way.

Men walk past our lives at times
Leaving a footprint or two as such
Crushing a few hearts on the way
Failing to see that it hurts so much.

bhool jaa......

tujhe bhulne ke liye kalam uthai
 tera naam har shayari mei aane laga

khud zimmedaar hu is tabahi ki
   kyu toot kar tujhe chahane lagi?

ruk gai saans ab maut aai hai
  zindagi se humne v maat khai hai

tere v naam pe fareeb mila
  ae khuda ab bas tere naam ki duhai hai

are hum tho pukarte rahenge apko
        ap aaye ya na aaye
apna is kadr maan chuke hai apko

     bhale ap apnaye ya na apnaye..............

this is what i feel....

THE WAY U LOVED THE WAY I LOVED,
THE WAY I MISSED, THE WAY U KISSED
THE WAY U HUGGED, THE WAY I SURRENDERED
THE WAY I SAID , THE WAY U HEARD
THE WAY U HOLD, THE WAY I TOLD
THE WAY I ARUGUED, THE WAY U UNDERSTOOD
THE WAY U SMILED, THE WAY I REPLIED
THE WAY U SAID M BEAUTIFUL, THE WAY I FELT ON TOP OF WORLD
THE WAY U LOOKED INTO MY EYES,THE WAY I WANTED TO HOLD U TI8,...... 

I REMEMBERED EVERY LITTLE THING U DID I CAN NEVER FORGET U, BUT MAY BE U DID . HOW CAN U SAY ME THAT U DONT LOVE ME AND THAUGHT THAT I WOULD BELIEVE COZ ITS U TRULY LOVED ME ONCE . I GAVE U MY HEART TO HANDLE WITH CARE .....BUT.....................

mamta

khilkhilahat kisi ke hasi k sunte hi,
bangayi takdeer si lagne lagi hai,
kisi ne "maa" keh k pukara hai,

pyari si gudiya ho ya natkhat sa gudda
kisi v haal mei itna pyar nyochavar kar du
bina bole har tamnayei puri uski puri kar du

choti si ungli pakad k jab chalna sikhau
thokar v lage tho dhal ban k mei aage aau?

uski ek muskurahat k liye var du mai apna jivan

pehli baar jab usne maa keh kar pukara
uske ek shabd ne mera jivan savara

pehle laga tha jivansathi se ho jati hai zindagi puri
ab ehsaas hota hai uske bina kitni thi adhuri

umeed budhape ki nai hai mujhe
bas pyaar k badle pyar de de

jitna pyar mei dungi uska adha v lauta de mujhe................

misss you

there was rain & there was tears
fear in mind & she was near,

holding her hands sitting next to her
counting her breath, even heart beat was so clear,

dnt know why today words seemed to be few,
may be the fear that i could not apart from you,

let me see you all through this night
let me hold this moment bright

want to say you this darling,
but everytime i start my lips tremble and i stop

i know you feeling the same pain
but hiding just to make me smile

but i am sorry today this pain is so much
that even i cant give it a try

let me hold you ti8, lemme cry

oh please dont leave my hands

the pain to see u apart is hard to bear
i wish i could always keep you near

there is rain & there is tear
fear in mind but this time you weren't near.........

is it true!!! every gals like this

feeling am going through
      i know i wont b able to convey it to you,
i know no one could really understand
    coz i already tried alot many times

and guess what? every time i failed
    and realized nothing can really be mine,
people say is it fun for you
  to bring us to the state of normality

and all of asudden make us realize nothng waz ever true

damn! i am left with no words to explain
except
no matter how well i try
you people can never be satisfied,
   its all the same old story
everytime i just try to console nd say thers nothng to worry,

its just not the word can i do for you

believe me i was and am  alwayz wid you

as a friend till the end,
  i know you dont believe

trust me every girl nxt door isn't the same
  i never loved you for security and fame

try to understand
  if i be with you today

 and after two yrs
  the day you will go
i really wont be able to withstand the pain to see you go......

because of you

i have been in darkness for so long just w8ing for light,

and now that you have come my ways , my days dont seem like ni8,

i am glad that i have overcome my fear of other side,

thankyou for taking me on a side,

i have never felt like this ever for a guy before,

you truly touched me from deep inside and opened all doors,

i know nthng is so serious bt its a start,

you treated me so well, i felt it frm my heart

and even if it doesnt work i am glad i have had this chance

to see how great you are even for a glance

we never know what will come of thia it really just depends

i am glad that we are becoming better frens


with you i never have to guess just hw you really feel,

you talk to me about the facts and  tell me what the deal

with you  i fell so comfortable as if nothing can go wrong

i get a tingly feeling inside you sing to me like a song

i am trying to live in this moment, by forgetting about the past

and so far it has been working and its really been a blast

so hopefully from this day fourth
i  will know just what to do

if even i come across a guy , another guy just like you